So its me again, i left with a cliffhanger mainly because the reason needs a whole post to explain. So why were they mad at me? Because after my birthday, everything that followed basically tore me apart and fell rock bottom. Days after my birthday, i tried to commit suicide because my mother and i kept arguing why my girlfriend was always at our place, but theres more reasons to it. Alongside that, me and my girlfriend frequently argued during that time, mainly because i wanted her to change her drinking habit and staying off MDMA because of the side effects that it can cause(mainly episodic to severe depression). I never told J squad about my relationship problems (besides Jordan) because i wanted them to have a good impression of her. I tried to commit suicide(by taking pills) two hours before work. My stomach was hurting and was trying to fall asleep. My girlfriend was at work and she was on the phone with me when i tried to do it. She hung up and called Jordan but he wasnt available so he called one of our co-worker(let’s call her Lesbean) to go to my place and check up on me. She did and i asked her for a ride to work. After all that fiasco, another dilemma happened. During work, I was called by my boss to come outside. What happened next really messed me up and tore me apart but that’s another post i need to explain next log. Goodnight tumblr. I woke up at 4:30A.M. and couldnt sleep. Been thinking about how I lost all my old friends over my past mistake and another man’s loud mouth. thinking about it, “J-squad” or “Justice Lee” was just a facade that’s held by a thin rope. I dont think that they noticed but every single person in that “squad” had their own clique. Jimmy has his gaming friends who he plays almost every night. He started going out with them more than he hung out with J Squad. Lee was another thing. He had his own team which I proudly repped (til this day), he is the most hard working man I’ve ever encountered, going from Antioch to Sac every week. This guy had his blood, sweat and tears to his team. But every SacAnime, means different rosters. He started hanging out with his Sac friends more than J squad. Me, Jen and Jordan? We had our own Milk Tea Lab squad. Since we were all working under one roof, we naturally cliqued because of it. So what happened to me? I fell off their radar, thinking it wouldnt be a problem since they know that whenever im down, I isolate myself to any social activities unless invited or talked to first. I’m tired of being mistreated and misunderstood. On my next log, im gonna tell you what led to why they’re mad at me. |
